|Fr. Denis came to the Hospital about 1 A.M. and performed the baptism|
|resting together after his birth|
|He was not able to nurse, but was comforted by NG tube feedings every couple hours|
|What a joy to take care of Mark-Jerzy for the 40 hours|
I have been wondering why. Not "why God did you do this to us?", But there seems to be so much purpose in his little life. Purpose in the pregnancy. Purpose in us being here in KC. Why God, why did you give us him? What is it you are teaching us? His brothers and sisters who have been loving him since they found out that he was coming. He gave the world Mark-Jerzy for forty hours. Why? What is it that You are teaching us?
|The kids singing with Jon during communion at the funeral mass|
This is the song we listened to during labor, afterwards, Jon sang at the funeral mass, and continue to listen to.
Mark and I have been reading Interior Freedom, by Jacques Philippe. On the day after Mark-Jerzy's Funeral we picked it up and read the following:
"It is natural and easy to go along with pleasant situations that arise without our choosing them. It becomes a problem, obviously, when things are unpleasant, go against us, or make us suffer. It is precisely then that, in order to become truly free, we are often called to chose to accept what we did not want, and even we would not have wanted at any price. There is a paradoxical law of human life here; one cannot become truly free unless one accepts not always being free!
To achieve true interior freedom we must train ourselves to accept, peacefully and willingly, plenty of things that seem to contradict our freedom. This means consenting to our personal limitations, our weaknesses, our powerlessness, this or that situation that life imposes on us, and so on. We find it difficult to do this, because we feel a natural revulsion for situations we cannot control. But the fact is that the situations that really make us grow are precisely those we do not control."